i wonder
whats wrong with me
sometimes
i just keep
wanting to go deeper and deeper into the world
of self destruction
like as if
i want to see myself fail completely
and disappear.
strange
its like a dive
i used to be on swim team when i was young
and i hated it so much
i wanted to drown
every time i dived
but i always end up
finishing second
sometimes first
but mostly second place
and i didnt give a fuck about it

☆★☆★☆

Posted 1 year ago with 48 notes
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