my friend told me over lunch the other day that you get a better understand of yourself and all of the little confusing things of your past comes more in a clear sense in your early 20’s
its been quite true, in my late teens i was quite confused about couple things like still im abit confused but slowly i am getting a broader view of what actually happened of things that i have, and what things actually are
and moved on, no hate, no self pity, forgive and forget i am in heaven and im in hell alot of the times, this kind of job, damages people. but for me, ironically it gave me time to thik about myself alot. (since all the wait and things) i told myself, from beginning to spend time nicely, spend time wisely. also fame, comes and goes. i just wanted to go away.
i grew up with alot of things. but i have nothing to go back to. im not korea, im not english, im not singaporean, im not european. im not american. no hometown to be stuck to. i wonder. where is my home. even before this job, i was always wondering. i was such a lonely child now my friend comfort me by telling me, that i can make my own new home now, as i am free.