to be honest, living in paris was fun but also very very depressing
i was used to getting anything i want at anytime since i was young
i used to get very upset or agressive or simply did not understand WHY sometimes i cant get what i want
and now i realised, things dont work like that
in europe… almost more than 50% of chance it wont work out like you want, and people will be retarded about things and if you stress about it only you will suffer
i knew the theory always but then its hard to accept it, and i told myself before im 25, i will force myself to suffer abit in abroad to develop myself, cos i feel like when i get back home ppl treat me like a princess and i keep getting super spoiled…n alot of weird ppl so…i become caught up its better in korea i can focus on the emotional complexity of life its abit entertaining to deal with psycho people … … it kills time.
its still a constant battle between my old friends telling me "Uve become so tough poor you! means u suffered" "its so un nessasory you learn these things you are gonna come back anyway" but im sure there is a way to become strong without being tough…
ive been very happy recently. and im learning how to not be tough but strong. i lived a fast life and i wanted to end it as quick as possible and now days i feel like… everyday is kind of precious to me